I AM BACK!!

Well well well...it has been over 6 MONTHS since I created this blog and unfotunately not only have a stopped writting but I have stopped living a healthy lifestyle.  It's been an emotional, stressful rollercoaster as I finished up my final semester of college and now as I apply for graduate school.  While not an excuse, the events in my life certainly have not helped in building my self-esteem or overall wellness.  I am SICK of setting goals for myself...failing...and consequently giving-up all together and watching my self-esteem plummet as well.  Something has to be done. I need to focus on what this blog was originally created for...finiding freedom in terms of wellness and self-acceptance.  I always felt that I would accept myself after losing weight...now I realize that I cannot wait to be thin to work on my self-esteem.  Gaining confidence NOW will help me remain determined to coninue-on when I eat something outside my diet plan or when I encounter any struggle in daily life. 
So...I am back. Seriously...I am back. Today my day was filled with healthy habits but ended with binging..a terribly unhealthy habit. Tomorrow is a new day. I am working out at the YMCA in the morning and will report back with my workout, eating diary, as well as feelings throughout the day. If anyone out there is reading this...thanks for following :) I need support in this....this journey is not easy but I know it is attainable.  If I make even just a little progress each day...that's a whole lot better than I have done in the past 6 months. Here's to the long road to recovery ahead and feeling better and healthier each day :)

30 sugar-free days...starting 07-07!!

Have you ever heard of the Dr. Scott's "30 Sugar Free Days" challenge?? I encourage you to CHECK IT OUT! http://olsonnd.com/30-sugar-free-days/
I did a modified version of this plan for a few months and it was GREAT! Since reintroducing sugar and foods that act like sugar (most grains, processed snacks etc) I have fallen once again under sugar's spell. While I KNOW i feel ten times better when I do not eat sugar, I have experienced anxiety lately when thinking about going back to eating "sugar free" and contemplating giving up the sweet stuff for GOOD.  Once I eat clean for a few days, the cravings will pass and I will be set. It's just getting past those first few insane-craving days. I am posting my official starting date here to get it in writing! If anyone would like to join me in this challenge..feel free! Whether it's for a week, a month, or for life...it's an eye-opening experience to see how sugar impacts your well-being and just how much added sugar is in EVERYTHING! It really isn't necessary, but it's a reality when looking at the ingredients list at any grocery store. So here's to eating more veggies, fruits, and protein! I'll post some examples of meals and recipes as I go through this challenge!

My FIRST EVER POST--Here's to being Fit and Free!

Hello All! In the past,  I have done some blog hoppin' . However, I am new to this whole writing a blog myself buisness! While I have no idea what I am doing or if anyone out there can read this..getting this down in writing will do wonders for my personal journey towards physical and emotional wellness.  While I love love exercising (particularly distance running and group fitness classes) I STRUGGLE STRUGGLE with eating. I so desire to have a normal relationship with food. Even if I am eating healthy, food is constantly on my mind. "when can i eat next? Should I have another helping? chocolate where/when can I have chocolate??" I am commiting myself to write a daily post about my feelings towards all things food and fitness related. I hope to also uncover the many emotional struggles lurking behind my binge-eating habit. I am ready to break free from my food obsession/addicition and become a "normal" healthy, marathon gal. This post is pretty short and sweet...but just wait there will be PLENTY more to come!